I have been in the hospital for two weeks. That is so hard for me to believe. The time has flown. The first week was such a blur to me. Now, I can clearly remember everything. Things are still going well, and I am being treated great by all of the nursing staff. They have been wonderful and have made everything so much better. I get my next growth ultrasound on Monday! I can’t wait to find out how big the babies are! I have decided to not worry about my cervical length. I cannot control it, and I am doing everything I can to help the babies stay inside. I am just so happy to have made it two more weeks!! The babies seem to be happy about it too. They have been moving like crazy today. I mean non-stop! I really think I felt a hand earlier today. It was nuts! I love feeling them move and knowing they are healthy!! I wish I had more to update y’all with, but no news is ALWAYS good news.
I love you all!
I had my cervical length this morning. It was 8mm. I had wanted it to be at least 10mm. That is what it was two weeks ago. They believe I am still okay and will last a long time. They think it is the weight of the babies more than anything else. They are still pleased with the contractions I have, and they will not be changing any of my medications. The babies looked fantastic on the ultrasound. There are no fears about them. That does make me happy.
Now, how I feel. I am pretty rattled by my cervical length. I feel like I have done everything they said and I can do, and my cervix is not doing any better. There is really nothing else I can do, and that is killing me. There has to be something. The docs say I am doing everything right and not to worry. That DOES NOT help. I feel like I am failing my kids on some level. I can’t stop the contractions or the changing of my cervix. I would stand on my head if it would help. I know if they come out now, they should be okay in the long run. “Should be fine in the long run” is not okay with me. I want them to be happy, healthy, wild children who I get to play with and love on all of the time….. and have to discipline every once in a while! I just have to keep believing I can keep them in for a while and all will be okay.
You know what is amazing though? I was fighting not crying again (I had been crying all morning) when my Mom and my best friend Stephanie showed up. I did not know either of them were coming. Mom stayed for just a few minutes since Stephie was here. She went back to work without having to worry about me. She should never have left the store since Brett and Joy are on a business trip, but, being Mom, she did anyway! Stephie stayed for a couple of hours, and that did me a world of good. It is amazing how God keeps providing for me when I don’t expect it. Please keep praying for us.
I love you all,
Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday dear Casey!!
Happy Birthday to you!
Since I refuse to sing on the phone anymore, I decided I would type it for you!! I love you so much. I hope this next year is wonderful for you. You are the best brother in the world.
We now have two of the triplet strollers we need!!! I am so thrilled. Dad and Sally got us our Triple Decker stroller. Raj went and bought our triplet jog stroller today from another triplet family. I am so thrilled!!
Tomorrow is my next cervical length. I am a little nerous right now. I am so ready to know what it is. I should know in the morning sometime. Please pray it is no shorter than 1cm, but I really want it greater than 1.5cm. I will let y’all know after I find out. I am also putting a belly picture from today up. They are just fun to see. It has been a wonderful, quiet weekend!!! I hope it stays like that!!
Triple Decker Stroller
Triplet Jog Stroller
Moe in the stroller!
All you have to do to see the belly shots is click on the links! I can’t figure out why I can’t get a thumbnail size for these!!
I love you all.
Good morning all. I can even say it is a good morning for me. It is nice to be sleeping through the night these days. Granted, one Benadryl is necessary to do that, but it works! I am really getting in a routine. I like routines. They allow me to know what will be going on and when. Being a very Type A person, that is great. Yesterday was a really good day. I had several visitors. I LOVE visitors! It is so nice because they came while I was alone and really perked me up. Boredom Busters, a volunteer group who brings things to help lift our spirits, came and brought me a latch hook rug to do!! I am so excited about it, but I have no clue how to do it. It is something a child can do, but I can’t seem to follow the directions correctly. If you know how to do this, call me! I need help!! Pet therapy also came yesterday. That was absolutely wonderful. I had a Nova Scotia Retriever come see me. His name is Chase. They put a towel on the bed, and he hopped up and laid on it. I was able to just sit here and pet him. It was so therapeutic. I miss my Moe so much, petting any furry creature was wonderful. Raj came last night, and, as always, it was wonderful. I believe the weekend will be good and uneventful pregnancy wise. I know it will be great otherwise.
This has been a crazy time for me and Raj. We both have had different challenges we have to face. Raj is amazing. He is having to manage so much. He is having to take care of me, the cats, me, the house, me, the bills, me, the nursery, me, painting furniture, me, etc….you get the point right? I will say I am not nearly as weepy these days, which helps a ton. But still, I want to see Raj. I feel better just having him play on his computer sitting next to me. I miss him terribly when he is not here. However he has so much to do there is no way he can just sit for days and weeks. He comes most evenings to see me. I try to get him to go home early, so he can get others things done that has to be done. Life must go on even though I am here. Sometimes that is a hard fact for me to accept. Last night, Raj did not come to the hospital. Mom came instead. Raj went home and did things he needed to do. He surprised me last evening with pictures of some of the flowers he planted in the yard! They are beautiful. He even planted some tomato plants. How wonderful and thoughtful can one man be? I am so lucky he is my husband, and we can travel this crazy journey of triplets together. I know there will be more ups and downs over the next few months, but I know we will be okay since we are together.
Babies Update: They all looked fantastic today on the ultrasound! Maggie is breech, or head up, again! Sometimes I think she is tap dancing on my cervix!! I really think she is my wild child! Evie and Josh were behaving like angels! I know they can be trouble makers too. I will get another cervical length on Monday. I am ready to know how my cervix is doing. One week from Monday I will get another growth ultrasound. They only do those every three weeks. They will continue to look at them twice a week though. I enjoy that time!
Here are a couple of pictures of the yard and one of me and Raj!
This what Raj did at the mailbox.
Here are the flowers in the front island.
Here are me and Raj before he left tonight.
I love you all!
Today has been a really good day. In fact, it is the best day I have had since I have been here. Not too much has gone on. I definitely prefer it like that!!! The nurse I had today is someone I actually worked with when I worked here on HRP. She is wonderful. I have even been able to eat a little more. This is wonderful thing. I need to eat a ton more, but beggars can’t be choosers!! Mom came by at lunch and played cards with me for an hour. It was great! When we play, we have fun. If I play with any of my other siblings, it is a battle to the death!! Our family can be a little competitive!!! That is what makes us fun though. Raj came by for a little bit tonight. He left early because he needs to go to Home Depot to pick up paint for the dressers! He is so ready to start working on the nursery. I am not quite ready for him to do it yet. I think working on the dressers is a happy medium!! He is also going to pick up our triplet jog stroller on Saturday!! I am so excited! We are buying it from another triplet mom here in Atlanta. I am thrilled at the price we are paying. I can’t wait to use it when I want to run with the babies! I am going to leave you with a couple of pics from earlier today! Raj and I meant to take a picture together before he left, but we forgot! Oops! We will do take one tomorrow. I have on no make-up….beware!!!
Me in bed looking gorgeous!!!!
Mama wanted to be in picture with me too!! Raj says the women in our family are posers! He may be right!!!
I love you all. Please keep praying!
I am in my new room. I really miss Labor and Delivery right now. I hope that will change. It is just a new adjustment here. Since Thursday, we have tried keeping me off medication to see how my cervix would react to bed rest. Granted, my amount of activity at home was no different than it has been here! Not a big suprise, but my cervix was shorter again today. It is now 1.4cm now. It is longer than when I was admitted, but shorter than when I was on medication last week. So, it is not nearly as bad as it could be. I am actually happy with the length relatively speaking. I know how much worse it could be. They have decided to start me on something called a t-pump. It is a pump that gives me a continuous dose of medication called Brethine to stop the contractions. It is not an IV. It is a subcutaneous needle with medication delivered into my leg. If any of you remember the pump I was on for the nausea and vomiting of early pregnancy, it is the same thing…just different medication. I am not thrilled about it, I had wanted to take pills first. I am trying to be a good patient though and not question things or ask about other options. It is really killing me. It is hard to be a provider and a patient. I will get used to it one day!
I do have EXCITING news thought!! Evie has hair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have always joked with Raj that half the reason I married him is because he is half Indian and I could have babies with hair. Indian babies always have hair! My family does not produce many babies with hair! Rebecca Anne had hair, but she is the only one. I am so excited at least one of the three will have hair…..and I can use bows in her hair! Josh would not appreciate bows! Deep down I have always thought he would have hair, while the girls would be bald!! I am thrilled to know one girl has the hair. I will make sure Maggie looks cute even if she is too bald for bows! I needed smile and hear about Evie today. It has helped me a lot.
Otherwise, there is nothing new. We are just trying to make it one day at a time. Sometimes, it is one hour at a time. I am just glad the babies are doing well. That is the only thing that matters to me. Please pray for continued patience and acceptance along with the health of our babies and the pregnancy.
I love you all.
Remember, I am writing this blog to update everyone who cares so much. However, I am also writing it so I can cope and remember these events in the future.
How can I feel ungrateful in the least? Why is it that all I want to do is go home? How is it that I can’t mentally see the big picture? Why can I just be happy knowing I am at the absolute BEST hospital in the world for me and my babies? These are the quesions that plague me the most. HELLO. I am spoiled rotten here. I have nurses who bring me DVDs to watch from home. We are not talking B movies no one has ever heard of. We are talking good stuff. I have nurses who stop by just to say hi. I get snacks from dietary because the nurses wanted me to eat more, not because I need it. I have doctors who allow me to be an integral part of the care. They know how much I know and respect me. I am not treated like a normal patient. I am so lucky and blessed, but it can be hard for me to realize it some days. I am a very logical person. I know I want what is best for my children. I know being here will be the best for them. I will do whatever it takes to do my part in make sure we have three healthy, vibrant children. I love them so much. All that to be said. I want to go home. I know I can’t. I know I won’t. I know how good I have it here. But my non-mother side (remember these are my first children) of me just wants to go home.
Here is the only way I can describe how I feel. I feel like I am a 10 year old at church camp for the first time far from my family, but with counselors and friends I have known forever, but at night when I crawl into my sleeping bag all I want to do is go home and see my mom. When things settle down and it is time to go to bed, it is the easiest to forget all of the fun you are having at camp. All of a sudden cleaning out the dishwasher after dinner is fun in your scared little head even though you know you hate this chore. It is the oddest sensation to have that feeling as an adult. Just like with camp, why leave? You know the inevitable always follows if you make that call to have your mom come and get you. Once you leave, you wish you were at camp. At camp you get to make crafts and roast marshmallows as you sing goofy camp songs with your friends. When you go back home, you have to do chores and make your bed. That is just how I feel. I want to call Raj and tell him to come get me. I can be in the bed all of the time at home. However, the first contraction I got at home would scare me, and I would be alone and away from all of the people who can fix and help me. I will never leave—not until the babies come in a looong time—but right now I feel like I am at summer camp…..wanting the best of both worlds. I can’t do that. I am going to stay the length here, and when I get home laugh at the fact that I really wanted to go home and how much I would have missed and how stressed out and scared I would have been.
I just want to thank everyone who is praying for us. I have had a few people come see me, and it has been wonderful. I am pretty certain I am getting moved to my new room today. I will let y’all know where I am when I get there. The docs all think I will make it a lot longer! I am so hoping for that. I am giving the babies two week intervals. They first have to make it past Uncle Casey’s birthday. Then, we will work on the next goal…making it past my birthday!!! If anything changes today, I will update you all, but I think it is going to be a quiet day!!
PS I know the comments are not posted to where everyone can read them, but I do. They are the greatest for me personally.
Well, I’m here. Things are looking good. They have stopped all of my medication and are only monitoring me once a day unless I feel that my contractions have changed. They did another Fetal Fibronectin Test today. It was still negative!! They are all really pleased with how I am doing. They still feel like I will be here for a very long time. That is a good thing. Raj and I want the babies to be as healthy and big as possible when they are born. I had a a pretty rough day yesterday in respect to medication. I do not take many medications, so I responded pretty strongly to one of the meds they started me on. Granted, I will no longer get any more of that medication. I appreciate all of the phone calls, comments, and prayers. We really need them. This is a very trying time for both me and Raj. It is very hard being away from home and everything I am used to. For Raj, he is making numerous trips to both locations. I know it is wearing him out. Please pray the next 6 weeks fly by and the babies come out big and healthy. I am still pretty tired, so I am going to nap some more. I promise I will give more details later.