I can’t believe 2008 is over! What happened to the last year? This is the year I had dreamed of since I was a little girl. I always wanted to be a wife and a Mommy. I married my Mr. Right in 2005, and thanks to a lot of help, I finally got to be a Mommy….to THREE babies. I am the luckiest woman in the world. I am not saying this year has been all roses, but every thorn I hit has made me a stronger and happier woman. Think about it. Last January, I was on a Zofran pump to prevent me from vomiting all of the time. On top of that, I was having to force (what an oxymoron for me) myself to eat.
I was honestly scared after I got pregnant. I LOVE being in control. With any pregnancy, much a less a triplet pregnancy, you are not in control of everything. I was so scared I was going to lose one or more of the babies. Every day I did an ultrasound to make sure I still saw three heartbeats. Is that not insane?! I already loved my babies that much. Every MFM appointment I went to, my blood pressure was elevated because I was so scared something was going to be wrong. There is a Bible verse that says “Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication make your requests known to God and the peace of God that trancends all understanding will guard your heart and mind in Christ Jesus”. I quoted that verse to myself all of the time. I wish I could have let it sink in more.
As the year progressed, Raj and I bought a new house…in the burbs….and left our little condo. The day we closed on the house, I went on bedrest. How insane is that?! On April 14th, I was admitted to the hospital for the duration of my pregnancy because my cervix was 8mm and I was contracting tons. Oh how I felt like I had failed my babies. It took me a long time to work through that one! I am so glad I am past that now! Those 29 days were tough, but WELL WORTH every minute of it.
Then my sweet babies were born. Oh what a moment. I started worrying about them the moment they were delivered. It is amazing I can evaluate a baby without even seeing it! I was the most worried about Evie. Oh I still remember that feeling so well. She didn’t cry enough for me. Maggie nor Josh concerned me all that much. I still remember them bringing the babies past me. Mark, my friend and NICU respiratory therapist, let kiss Maggie. That was the most priceless moment of my life. I remember starting to cry. I did not get to touch the other two. However, 9 hours after surgery thanks to being a little difficult, I got to go to the NICU to see my babies. Oh what a glorious moment that was! They were all so perfect and beautiful.
Then, on June 10th, I got to bring all three of my babies home. What an awesome moment that was. Raj and I made it. We survived our first night at home alone…in fact, we thrived! The next weeks were wonderful! We went to the beach. We loved on our babies. It was all perfect until…..
I will still never forget doing chest compressions on Maggie and begging God not to let her die. Oh it was just terrible. I will NEVER forget that itty bitty little cry after more than four minutes of compressions that let me know she was going to live. Those eight days while she was in the hospital were a nightmare for me. I think that was the absolute most difficult time in my life……ever. I am so lucky to have such wonderful friends and family. I don’t know how I would have survived without each of you.
The past few months have been so fun! The babies are growing like weeds! They are starting to babble, and they are loving eating solid foods. They love to play and explore their worlds. I think we will even have some teeth soon too! I am enjoying learning their personalities and their little quirks.
Raj and I have grown stronger as a couple. It is so wonderfulto still be so in love with him. We are definitely learning more about one another as each day passes. We have even gotten to spend time together without the babies thanks to Mimi and Mrs. Susan. You are both wonderful. However, when Raj and I are out, it is hard not to talk about the babies. Every moment with him is the greatest moment ever. I am so lucky.
Well, if you made it through all of that, thanks so much for reading. 2008 has been the best year of my life….ever. I can’t wait to see how 2009 goes. I know there will be tons of surprises and excitement along the way. I want to thank you all for reading our story. I can’t wait to share the happenings of 2009 with you all.
Now I am stealing an idea from my friend Jen’s blog!
I love you all.